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HMMM...
Do you ever get into the right mind set to get something done? Maybe at first you have some other things going on, obligations, involvitations, completitions (seriously, i saw that "word" in an academic paper/website I was going through for my research. my thought... "...really?!" /end aside), or even hobbies and leisure activities.
These days it's easy to have a lot of hobbies. High definition photography is enabled for the common man via high- or mid- but sub-pro level DSLR cameras. Youtube videos teach us how to DJ, how to put on our makeup, how to make tables, chairs, play the guitar, and probably a lot of other things that I'm forgetting. And if it's not on youtube, there's a DIY tutorial or magazine article available for you to read. Case. In. Point. Oh wait i forgot to mention breakdancing, a must-know in the A-tee-ell.
When I was a little beh-beh, maybe toddler/youngster-ish. . . apparently (I have no recollection of this) I used to try so hard to stay awake as long as I could if my parents had friends over, in case of missing some excitement that might occur if I were to fall asleep. Because everyone knows my parents were such party animals...
So I don't think that's changed much. In my little corner of life I have opportunities to be involved in the artistic community, entertainment and music industry, and as with living in a bigger city, more opportunities to be involved with charity and urban outreach programs and ministries. Additionally, I love being with others who are walking in a similar faith journey as I am, to learn from them, encourage, and be encouraged by them. Oh wait, on top of that, I ALSO forgot to mention the whole trying-to-graduate thing. And a recent obsession with rock climbing. And I have people to keep in touch with even here in town. And i'm not doing a very good job at that...
Let's return to the initial topic. From this past summer up until now, starting with the Imogen Heap blessing and opening opp, I have been noticing the high level of focus and perseverance that others have in their own areas of awesomeness/expertise. The drummer who's been playing with us of late is just such an example of how much hard work can pay off over time. It may be a slow start or a difficult initial hill to get over but as one grows in their skill new doors and plains open up.
I began to look at my own life. What do I want to do or be doing, or have done ten years from now? I made a 5 year plan five years ago, but now that time has come and gone, and I haven't made another plan for the next five. I'm just going to say it. I lack focus. And I've got my foot in far too many things. I made a list of everything I'm doing. It was way too long. (twss?) Probably half of the items were things that are ending in the next few weeks. After that? Will I keep taking on temporary projects that don't get me closer to my goals for the next five years of my life?
I want to learn more languages.
I want to expand my artistic and musical talent.
Where do I want to go? And how far do I plan to go?
In my mind I need to answer these questions but this diploma is keeping me from being able to think about them seriously. That in itself is giving me a lot of motivation and drive to finish this thing and move on with my life. The students I started with are beginning to defend and graduate. And my process is beginning to come together. I think it will be like a giant snowball rolling down a snowy mountain.
I'm starting to care less about missing out on things I think I might be missing out on and more intentional about doing the things I need to or want to. I feel like some action is needed on this, but I'm not sure in what areas yet, or to what extent. There's always the hermit option, which gets the job done but is never good for social life or skin tone. I'll keep you guys posted on this. :/ But for now I gotta get a little more work done before I jet off today.
And if you didn't see it yet... I've been dabbling in levitation photography lately. It's Soooper fun!
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